Whilst sitting a morning or two ago I started to have some realisation with regards to “time”. I experienced “time” more objectively than is usual and in that space I was able to note various qualities. How accurate these observations are I can’t say. They certainly seemed pretty “real” when I had this experience — although for now I put them forward as a hypothesis. Here are the notes I made that morning…
To the Self (“I”) what we perceive as “past” and “future” are actually the same. It is only the time related perceptual centres in the brain (a reality creating machine) that puts our experience of time into an apparent linear continuum running from part to future. I suspect this only comes about as a human being takes on an conceptual framework of self-definition during early childhood. Time, as we perceive it, is a product of the ego-mind. The so-called and apparent “past” has an apparent impact on my future simply because they are the same “stuff”. For instance, if a person maintains that in the past he/she was abused at the age of four and this impacts on that person’s future in such a way that it results in them constantly attracting abusive situations, it appears that the past is affecting their future.
What I am suggesting is that in a way that is slightly tricky for the mind to comprehend, the past and the future is essentially the same collection of “stuff”. My “now” / current experience of that “stuff” is determined by what my attention is currently fixated on. Because of the cyclic nature of the collective Dream, it is highly likely that patterns will arise as I cycle through the various “stories” within this “stuff” from which past and future appear to arise and take form.
So-called “Karma” is—as previously pointed out—all here and now. Some of us say that past action creates future reaction—or “as you sow, so shall ye reap”—yet really what we are dealing with is the nature of my dream configuration here and now. The degree to which I am unconscious / ignorant is the degree to which life will seem to uncontrollably “happen” to me. If in my apparent “past” I took (unconsciously” certain life-taking actions then, of course, in my apparent “future” I will experience certain similar life-taking events… because nothing leaves its source. I simply project out my story into this “stuff” from which the events of my life disappear into (past) and emerge out from (future) as I sit here experiencing the now. That which is created can not leave its source. The source of that which I appear to do and experience here and now (in this apparent world) is WITHIN.
The secret—as far as I can ascertain—is to wake up to what is going on.
This is where awareness comes into the picture.
Awareness sheds Light on these aspects of self that were previously in the dark (as far as my perception was concerned), due to ignorance and unconsciousness. Desire/craving and aversion were recognised as two “impurities” or “defilements” of a person’s “self-hood” that we must get free of simply because these qualities of mind can only arise from and be perpetuates by an ignorant mind. Once I am awake to the fact that EVERYTHING that appears to be taking place in my world is extending out from WITHIN and that it can not leave its source, I will cease to crave or avert what I see in my world. Rather I will turn the world around and use what I perceive to bring me back to the source from which it all extends—my SELF.
Thus, reality as I experience it right now is exactly what I need in order to set myself free—or, put another way, to bring the full free nature of That which I AM into man-I-fest being. Everything is happening for me and not to me, and is ultimately created by me. This we have explored before now. The purpose of everything that I experience is to bring me back to the source—back to Self so that I may reconcile with the Truth That I Am… with Love… with God. If past and future are composed of the same “stuff” then trying to influence the course of events in my apparent future independent of my memory of the apparent past is just folly.
To bring about a configuration change in the “stuff” that past and future are “made” of I can focus on either—past and/or future. For instance, if something terrible happened to me when I was six—or in some past life thousands of years ago—then until I have reconciled that experience within myself it will continue to exert an influence on and play a part within my apparent future. My memory of the so-called and apparent “past” will influence my “memory” of the future—for they are the same thing.
What I appear to be experiencing here and now is simply whatever aspect of my “memory” (past/future memory) I happen to be fixated on with my attention, here and now. I don’t mean to suggest that if a person is 40 and is going to die at 80, that their 40 years of “future” is going to look exactly like their 40 years of “past”. Rather, what I am suggesting is that what they perceive as their 40 years of history and then experience as the next 40 years of future (prior to death) is just a perceptual illusion generated by the mind as they look outward into their creation (their world). There are many details that will appear to be different, as there are many other influencing factors playing out in a persons consciousness that I am not elaborating on here. Also, the choices they make and the intentions they actuate will influence the “stuff” from which their past and future is composed.
My In-tension (intention) will direct my at-tension (attention). Hence it is the power of my In-tention that allows me to consciously (and unconsciously) “create” (or co-create?) my reality. The question that begs to be asked, however, is “do I really wan to?” So long as my focus is “out there” on what I am consciously or unconsciously creating, am I not potentially going to miss the point of it all—namely its function of returning me to God if only I was willing to turn the world around and own and reflect on my role in it all ?
I have a picture I have drawn the illustrates the nature of time as I saw it this morning, compared to time as most people in the “Western” culture perceive it. I will endeavour to transfer this onto my computer and add it to this article.
Blessings… Be well… Jonathan